Archive for April, 2012

Put on the mask

Posted in Uncategorized on April 25, 2012 by DecepticonKnits

I’m having one of those days.  I haven’t been sleeping well for several weeks, usually awake at 2AM and then can’t get back to sleep, onto of my usual fatigue.  This week I have probably gotten a full 8 hours since Sunday.  I am so tired and everything is rubbing me the wrong way.  I am super jealous of two coworkers because they both have been set up with new Mac computers, while I am stuck with a who knows how old dell.  But I guess it doesn’t matter since I will only be part of this group for a month more.  Hopefully my training and new job will have more up to date material, and maybe a bigger desk area (I can’t even stretch out my arms in mine, while everyone else has a double desk that they get to themselves, at least until we move to the new cubes).  I got irritated with another coworker because we work differently.  I sent her some data and wanted an opinion for future work.  She shoots me down and tells me not to worry about it at the moment.  But if I don’t worry about it, then it won’t get planned to be worked on and will fall to the wayside, and then I will for get what I need to do with it.  I need to keep everything in a flow of work.  She tends to hop from one thing to another in a more erratic way.  I don’t know how she keeps up with where everything is in the process. 

 I really just wanted to cuss everyone out a while ago, kind of waiting for someone to push the right buttons so I could just let it all out.  But I probably couldn’t do that anyways.  I always put on my mask of “Everything is okay, I’m fine, no problems here”, not that anyone would notice anyways.  I guess I have gotten too good at wearing this mask.  Hopefully the day will get better.  I have had my tea and piano music, so I have calmed some. Plans for lunch helps lift my spirits, hopefully I won’t get the urge to bite someones head off…