Personality Test

Posted in Uncategorized on October 16, 2010 by DecepticonKnits

My Personality

Openness to Experience
You rarely get angry and it takes a lot to make you angry, however you are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You do not enjoy confrontation, but you will stand up for yourself or push your point if you feel it is important, however you are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy. Your sense of duty and obligation is average and although you are mostly responsible you can sometimes be unreliable.

Free Poll


Posted in life on August 26, 2010 by DecepticonKnits

So bad with this thing!  I have been wanting to do a real post for a while and sadly just never made time for it.  Even now, I doubt this will be the post that I need to be making.  I think I am going to start with recent thoughts and move towards the past (at least until my class starts).

I have been trying really hard to find a path for my future.  I have looked into internships and jobs and even staying in school for a longer amount of time.  Internships seem to talk just as long as a job to get a resume seen.  So I have put those on the back burner until I figure out if I want to keep with school or find a job.  I have been doing some serious job searches too.  Most of them I feel either over or under qualified for.  There have been a few that I wanted to apply for, but I know that I will need help making my resume and attempting to ‘sell’ myself.  I have also debated about looking into other classes here on campus to see if any more offered areas that would help me get some good field experience or some form of footing for possible jobs.

With that thought, classes started this past Monday.  I think I have an interesting semester laid out before me.  I have a seminar class, which will help me get the first chapter of my thesis written, and (looking at the syllabus) maybe give some help in finding a job and preparing for it.  I have a GIS and Database class, that has not really taken place yet because the first day was intro/syllabus stuff and today class was cancelled… Hopefully, that class will give me some visual data for my thesis project (yay getting stuff for my thesis!)  Finally, is Ichthyology. The study of fish.  I don’t know how I got suckered into fish classes but I am actually excited for it.  I learn all the systems of a fish, habitat, and so on.  And on Thursday we get to go out into the field and collect the suckers by electofishing!  Yes!  Sending electricity into the water to paralyze them and catch them for studies!  When it gets colder we will retreat to the lab to identify the ones we caught.  How cool is that?

Time for class now.  Hopefully I will make the craft blog that I have been wanting to do for a long while.

Time to read?

Posted in Uncategorized on August 10, 2010 by DecepticonKnits

I would really like to get a library card at our local library. I have a desire to read something. However, even though I have this “desire” I never make time to read any books, even the ones I have and kind of want to read. How do people make time to read? Maybe I just clog my day with other activities I would rather do and it is a priority problem.

Other than not making time to read, I don’t know what to read!  How do you find new books?  Do you just go to the library and mull around until something strikes your fancy?  I have tired book sites, but really they just add to my confusion of what I may or may not want to read.

Slow day

Posted in Uncategorized on August 3, 2010 by DecepticonKnits

Once again I have failed at keeping a steady update with this blog.  Blah, I am not good at this stuff, but it is fun to come back now and again.  Today is the slowest freakin’ day in the history of time.  It probably has to do with the fact that I lack the motivation to work, therefore, I am not really doing much of anything and time crawls by.  It has led me to post this blog so I guess that is a good thing. 

Let’s see, things to write about…

My mom is still trying to get back in my life.  We have been doing the e-mail thing and I finally just mentioned that I did not think the e-mails were not getting my point across (it never happened on the phone either because she would talk over me or around  me).  So now she wants once a week or so updates.  I am going to give that a shot, see how long it takes before I am not updating as often as she would like.  Really, why does my mom need to know what is going on every week of my life.  She needed to know when I started college, but it gets old when I am talking to her and I just square my shoulders and say “I went to class.  That’s about it”  I don’t really ever feel that what happens in my life needs to be told to other people.  That and half the time I feel people don’t really care about the things I do want to talk about.  So, I just don’t share.  I think the only person who can get me to open up about anything is Brady, then you can’t get either one of us to shut up.  Anyways, back to mom, I am just curious how long she will keep up the niceties before she blows again.  Though, honestly, I think this will be the last time.  We have tried this a couple of times already and they have not gone well.  I’m thinking of the baseball metaphor “three strikes and you are out”.  I can only take so much rollercoaster emotions in my life from people.  I do not want it a constant part of my life from one person.

Oh, oh!  I have started a sweater XD  It is the cable luxe tunic.  I am having so much fun with it even though it is slow progress.  I am making a few changes to make the construction, hopefully, simpler in the long run.  I am slipping the first and last stitch of the wrong side of the yoke, that way I can pick up stitches easier.  I plan on doing this again for the back panel.  There was a fun article in the recent issue of Interweave Knits that showed you how to join pieces together while you knit the next piece.  I am using it on a blanket that I have had in the works for ever and had wished there was some way to do such a thing for it.  It is looking okay and makes it more interesting to work on.  I think it will help with the sweater by keeping it interesting and helping me to avoid the whole seeming thing, which by the way I hate doing. XP  But I am so excited!  It is pink and going to be so loverly! 

Later this afternoon I am going to go to see the photographer who took my wedding photos.  I have had such a hard time getting a hold of this guy.  I kept calling after Brady and I had our portraits done together, but either A.) no one answered the phone.  B.) a lady answered and told me to call back at 9 the next morning when someone would be there and A. happened.  Somehow, my MIL got their attention quickly and we are going to get my album made finally.  And I get to see the couples shots of Brady and me!  Again more excitement!  Really I just feel jittery and hyper and ready to bounce off the walls or something, it is still not helping the day to go faster though.

Drama In My Head

Posted in Uncategorized on March 16, 2010 by DecepticonKnits

It has been awhile since I have posted.  I’ve been having some drama in my head recently. 

I have not written about it in this blog, but since I have abandoned my other blog I guess I need to start writing it here again.  I have mom baggage.  I have not spoken to since two weeks before my wedding, which was two years and three months ago.  The last letter contact I had with her was in May after my graduation from college.  See, I did not invite her to my graduation.  It was a mix of knowing that she was still having back pain and emotional hurt of her not coming to my wedding.  Trying not to be evil, but if she still had to have medication to get through her day as she did when I got married and she didn’t want to make the trip to where I am, why should she make that same trip to see me graduate.  So not inviting her triggered a letter of 12 questions she wanted answers to. Then she would leave me alone and not have to have unanswered questions, blah blah blah.  I answered those questions in a 5 page essay back.  I was honest and probably a bit hurtful, though I tried not to be.  Did not hear from her after that, at least not until Christmas six months later.  Her gifts were nice and she included a card that said “I miss you and hopefully next year can be the one we can be together.”(she underlined the word one, not sure why)

Anyways, it had been six months, and I had moved on with my life without her in it.  Now my birthday is coming up soon and I am afraid she is going to send more gifts.  I can’t ignore it other wise I will probably hear a “after all the things I gave you, you are not giving me the time of day or a visit”  or something of that sort, just kind of rambltyping now.  I have been trying to figure out a somewhat nice way to writer her a letter saying that I don’t want her around in my life anymore, just leave me alone plz.  But I can’t seem to find a good way to say that.  I also feel a bit guilty because I am not really giving her a chance to be apart of my life.  I had a breakdown Sunday night though, thinking about all this and talking it over with my husband.  Before I got married I tried really really hard to make things go smoothly for her.  Took her opinions to heart and tried to work things out.  Problem is that nothing was right and I was not supposed to try to fix the things she saw wrong.  No matter what I did I could not make her happy.  There was nothing I could do.  I still feel that it would be the same if I did give her a chance and I would be back to being hurt and frustrated like I am now.  That’s the worse part!  I have not even had physical contact with her since before the wedding and she still gets to me like this!  I worry about what she and others of the family think of me.  I am afraid of hurting her feelings and looking like the bad daughter.  I have always tried so hard to be the good daughter and it lost me a lot of things in my life.  I did not let it make me miss out on a great husband though, I am happy for the choice I made.  Now I want to remove her from the picture totally because I am such a better person without her around or even making an appearance in my head.  But How do I tell her that.  I can’t ignore it.  But I don’t know how to do it. What do I say?

Another Design idea

Posted in Uncategorized on February 8, 2010 by DecepticonKnits

Sorry if you guys are getting annoyed with the Mass Effect 2 ideas I have been having.  I have yet another one.  A reversible torche hat.  One side with the renagade (the “evil” choice) symbol in red

 and the paragon (the”good” choice) on the other side in blue.  The main color would be black (of course) .

Post 2 in the same weekend!

Posted in Uncategorized on February 6, 2010 by DecepticonKnits

Just a quick not to myself, but sharing.  Was commisioned by my MIL and BIL tonight during seperate conversations.  First, my BIL asked if I could make his wife to be an earflap hat that was green and had two domes on the top for eyes.  For reference of what he is wanting…

My MIL wants me to make 5 cowls for some of her friends at work.  I don’t mind making either request because they give me enough time to make the projects and are willing to compensate me for my work.  The kermit hat will be another design for me since there does not seem to be any pattern out right now.